<?xml version="1.0" encoding="UTF-8"?><rss xmlns:dc="http://purl.org/dc/elements/1.1/" xmlns:content="http://purl.org/rss/1.0/modules/content/" xmlns:atom="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom" version="2.0"><channel><title><![CDATA[WorkInnProgress]]></title><description><![CDATA[Workinnprogress]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/blog</link><generator>RSS for Node</generator><lastBuildDate>Tue, 05 May 2026 02:27:44 GMT</lastBuildDate><atom:link href="https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/blog-feed.xml" rel="self" type="application/rss+xml"/><item><title><![CDATA[I want to not be so miserable]]></title><description><![CDATA[I have no clue as to what has sent me in this downward spiral, in this epic new wave of depression. But I am in her, and the least I can do is to acknowledging it. But the problem is that the most that I am able to do about it is also only acknowledging it. I have tried everything- giving into it and shutting down, respecting it and doing what my body and mind feels is the need not letting it control my days and getting out there, going out, trying to have fun doing bare minimum to not get...]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/i-want-to-not-be-so-miserable</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69ee4d1fa376fc1e0ec9bc0f</guid><pubDate>Sun, 26 Apr 2026 17:36:33 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/5b4e66_4ab08fb8bff64b48bf3b57afe34c5daa~mv2.jpg/v1/fit/w_1000,h_1000,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Bangalore heat and some breeze]]></title><description><![CDATA[Bangalore is very hot at this time. But at 11:23pm in the balcony of my 6th floor room, I can feel a wave of cool breeze move from my right to my left. The day here is feeling quite burned, and the nights are also usually not graced by breeze. But today, it is. Earlier under the scorching sun at around 10:48am when I was on a bike, I could feel some air that would normally be fwlt when on a moving vehicle, but it was warm, hot, to be precise. The breeze right now feels nice on my arms and my...]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/bangalore-heat-and-some-breeze</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69e7bec4cee1d9a6a6777d6d</guid><pubDate>Tue, 21 Apr 2026 18:18:32 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/5b4e66_4bf8072a4c2546769c375fd087fddc0c~mv2.png/v1/fit/w_1000,h_1000,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Accepting that I have got worse]]></title><description><![CDATA[No one said one day can only produce one blog post. Here goes another- April 20, 7:47pm- It takes a lot of courage to not shut your mind and stay silent when you see you are deteriorating. The fastest way for me to understand that my mental health is worsening used to be that I could not write. Then, eventually my world and work became all about writing. Now, I can write bare minimum to not have to take time off work and be able to scribble what's going on in my head as pointers to discuss...]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/accepting-that-i-have-got-worse</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69e63b638b2f11ff8e563c88</guid><pubDate>Mon, 20 Apr 2026 14:42:45 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/5b4e66_a7a8fd5875694b999d03a2a858ea2243~mv2.png/v1/fit/w_1000,h_1000,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Fragmented, mid-anxiety thoughts]]></title><description><![CDATA[I have seen, felt, experienced, and lived through panic attacks. They are rather easier to figure out. I can't breathe. I could be crying. I am shivering immensely. I am sweating sometimes. It feels like I will die. But at least it has a name that I can tell people is happening to me. I can understand it now, when its happening to me. But I don't know what's happening right now. Right now, my hands are clamming really bad. I am unable to sit still, I am continuously moving. I can breathe but...]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/fragmented-mid-anxiety-thoughts</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69e607e5930722cfe9167a59</guid><pubDate>Mon, 20 Apr 2026 11:04:10 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/5b4e66_4683d0830bde4207bf0826bde415799b~mv2.png/v1/fit/w_1000,h_1000,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Another bout of deep depression]]></title><description><![CDATA[Exceptionally depressed. Could it mean I am juat adjusting to the increased dose of my medicine? Or that I skipped it yesterday? Or just my usual self, which is usually depressed, i dont know. Yesterday night and today, everyone has been talking about about regrets and guilts. And I have been trying to lift their spirits by telling them that they still have a chance to compensate and reduce their guilts, that their are options to do damage control. Whereas, I do not have that option. But I...]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/another-bout-of-deep-depression</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69e39248cee1d9a6a67589db</guid><pubDate>Sat, 18 Apr 2026 14:20:51 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/5b4e66_19b9484938634851a95d13611067b471~mv2.png/v1/fit/w_1000,h_1000,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Post midnight panic attack]]></title><description><![CDATA[I can't breathe. I can't stop crying. I am wailing, but with my hand on my mouth, trying to make as little noise as possible. It seems like the oxygen is not going inside my lungs. I don't know how I will make it through the night alone. I have no one around me. My breathing toy is out of battery. I am an idiot. It's been out of battery for sometime now, but I did not get batteries. I can get it literally infront of my PG. I don't know how to survive through the night. I have turned the room...]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/post-midnight-panic-attack</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69c98c45effe4b22024ac2ee</guid><pubDate>Sun, 29 Mar 2026 20:45:49 GMT</pubDate><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[#dedicated to the ruse of kindness]]></title><description><![CDATA[You know, I don't ask for kindness, trust, and love from people. I don't expect it. But you can simply just NOT keep telling me that I can trust you and act all full of kindness and concern on my face and then revoke all kindness when I am not present or when it is inconvenient for you. You CAN FUCKING NOT be kind when you feel like it. You just can't. You simply can't. I know people like you exist. I know I was stupid to believe all your ruse. I know I was trusting. I know it was my fault....]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/dedicated-to-the-ruse-of-kindness</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69c969f54d6391e38cb464ce</guid><pubDate>Sun, 29 Mar 2026 18:10:34 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/5b4e66_5c557e5c507f4206a84861a3d1dd34c5~mv2.png/v1/fit/w_1000,h_1000,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Went to temple, couldn't fold hands]]></title><description><![CDATA[Dadi is hospitalised. She was quite unwell in the morning. Mum asked me to cancel her ticket for back home this morning. But as usual, I was numb. Since late afternoon-early evening, she is better. If someone knows me, they know that this scares me more (the getting better stage after falling sick). Dadi definitely had some opinions and actions in the past that I dont align with. But she has been so sad and miserable after Papa passed away. And I don't do two things even for my worst enemy...]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/went-to-temple-couldn-t-fold-hands</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69c2d3d512179886ce33fb8b</guid><pubDate>Tue, 24 Mar 2026 18:17:40 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/5b4e66_bcc43bbb97f540f89e1afefdedd16296~mv2.jpg/v1/fit/w_1000,h_1000,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[HBD Papa: got a belly piercing]]></title><description><![CDATA[I had seven piercings, two of which are closed now. Every piercing that I have ever got were with my father. Two of these were quite a long time ago, that I don't remember and only hear stories about. But all the rest I distinctly remember. My sister wanted a nose piercing, but I didn't. After my class 6th results' PTM, directly from school, all of us went to the jeweller's for her piercing. Then my mum forced me to also get one. My sister's pain tolerance is low and she fainted even before...]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/hbd-papa-got-a-belly-piercing</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69b6cd44d550596893cb9ce0</guid><pubDate>Sun, 15 Mar 2026 15:34:50 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/5b4e66_04e25465d295456f82d8c5735d5fc9f4~mv2.jpg/v1/fit/w_332,h_590,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[HBD'26: obligation to some, after-thought and choice to none]]></title><description><![CDATA[I am not big on birthdays-- no, false. I am not big on MY birthday ANYMORE. I still get super excited for birthdays of my close ones. I am gonna elaborately plan a midnight celebration, get a beautiful cake with name written (name should always be written on cakes, according to me. It's a small thing but shows that you remembered/cared enough. Anybody can get a random cake with no name written, but it takes some thought to put on a name, a message like happy birthday, congratulations,...]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/hbd-26-obligation-to-some-after-thought-and-choice-to-none</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69b28247d0cd2535b5256e50</guid><pubDate>Thu, 12 Mar 2026 09:15:30 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/5b4e66_9b196ec2ed1d43d193b1f1531c268485~mv2.jpg/v1/fit/w_720,h_1000,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Bob- the builder's fragmented thoughts]]></title><description><![CDATA[How I am hating taking over responsibilities that I was ideally supposed to learn from my father! I liked doing such jobs, it was out of sheer interest. Now its compulsion and it feels suffocating. I can't breathe Tomorrow is holi. I hate existing right now. I want to cry, I can't cry. I want to disappear so bad. My thoughts feel so fragmented that I can't even collect them into a trail. My father used to pray a lot. He was a believer. He did so much pooja not because he had to do it or was...]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/bob-the-builder-s-fragmented-thoughts</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69a71aab91f2882601db73c9</guid><pubDate>Tue, 03 Mar 2026 17:40:18 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/5b4e66_526e60a6e78d484a91ea779d69e9ff6d~mv2.jpg/v1/fit/w_1000,h_1000,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Valentine's day observations]]></title><description><![CDATA[I have no beef with valentine's day, because i have never set myself up with expectations from some guy, who has betrayed me or let me down or broke my heart. Everyone around me has. And i just dont know how horrible that pain would be, i can't imagine. And so, i have decided to let myself be consumed with the pain that already exists in my life, nothing new please. I came out for coffee on valentine's, not because it was valentine's, but because its a saturday. I sort of have developed a...]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/valentine-s-day-observations</link><guid isPermaLink="false">6990d6f97d7145cd9ea046ba</guid><pubDate>Sat, 14 Feb 2026 20:22:24 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/5b4e66_38454e48fa5c4c54b320eaff6224e9d1~mv2.jpg/v1/fit/w_1000,h_1000,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Closing windows on rays of sunlight]]></title><description><![CDATA[I don't know if a lot of "sick" people do this or I have surpassed all levels of sickness known to humankind. In my dark room without a blink of light, all doors and windows shut to maintain darkness, a ray of sunlight tried to enter. Okay, maybe not enter, just knocked on the window to tell me it exists there. And I shut my windows, locked them tighter, pasted newspapers on the glass, ensuring it doesn't enter my world and goes to light someone else's world, someone who deserves, someone who...]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/closing-windows-on-rays-of-sunlight</link><guid isPermaLink="false">698cd6a231ffa9c2435fb238</guid><pubDate>Wed, 11 Feb 2026 19:36:00 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/5b4e66_aa06dd8ebee34ee7ba8fe78df12ca5f8~mv2.png/v1/fit/w_1000,h_1000,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Hyper-independence and the table]]></title><description><![CDATA[My dad and I were a team, and my mom and sister were one. Papa and I shared the same interests. So if he is fixing, mending, repairing something in the house, I was his happy helper- watching him intently with holding the flashlight like it was the most important work in the world. I would insist him to increase my active participation- let me fix those screws or finally turn the switch of inverter on after he has fixed it. And the amazing human and dad he was, he would graciously let me....]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/hyper-independence-and-the-table</link><guid isPermaLink="false">697d5521afd4a3da350dd68b</guid><pubDate>Sat, 31 Jan 2026 01:09:19 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/5b4e66_b052f61485e64f09bc79e8dae8c789f3~mv2.png/v1/fit/w_1000,h_1000,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Why can't I cry like a normal heartbroken person?]]></title><description><![CDATA[I have woken up literally 4 hours ago and I have already been hit by a door and almost by a car by now today. The care touched my oversized sweater and went past by. No, I did not do either of those things intentionally at least today. But when the door hit me, it did not hurt for long, but I felt like crying. I couldn't cry. I haven't physically been able to cry for a long time even though I know I really felt like I wanted. I did not cry when I saw my father dead, I did not cry when I saw...]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/why-can-t-i-cry-like-a-normal-heartbroken-person</link><guid isPermaLink="false">6943c4a21a6ea3dfc23f95a2</guid><pubDate>Thu, 18 Dec 2025 09:08:55 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/5b4e66_7899d31697bc44b7a8f7e7f5c6b2d28a~mv2.png/v1/fit/w_1000,h_1000,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Pretending to ensure I atleast have a superficial village]]></title><description><![CDATA[Today, it has been four years without my father. I was feeling absolutely numb for many months now- about absolutely everything, not just his absence. I was complaining about it to my therapist yesterday, saying that it makes me feel guilty that I am not feeling anything even near his death anniversary. Then she explained to me that it was my defense mechanism- feeling numb about things in life, happy and sad both. I had planned a total isolated day for today, away from people I know, AWOL....]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/pretending-to-have-a-superficial-village</link><guid isPermaLink="false">692b020d1644150e2988adba</guid><pubDate>Sat, 29 Nov 2025 15:04:32 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/5b4e66_1f3a42cf604c414d933483f360321f38~mv2.jpg/v1/fit/w_1000,h_618,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Humara toh sab kuch chala gaya Diwali pe]]></title><description><![CDATA[I lost everything this Diwali. It felt like the last nail in the coffin. I lost everything, we lost everything. Dhanteras, Diwali is time when people buy stuff, big stuff- gold, house, etc. But what about those who they buy from? The house? I never thought this until I was in those shoes. One day before Dhanteras, our house was sold off. That very house, the one in which I was born and my dad died, the house where I had every memory of my father. I had a bittersweet relationship with that...]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/humara-toh-sab-kuch-chala-gaya-diwali-pe</link><guid isPermaLink="false">68fbd33cbe1c9042a118befa</guid><pubDate>Fri, 24 Oct 2025 20:12:46 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/5b4e66_47409ae1640f42ed8b4082e70a5456f0~mv2.jpg/v1/fit/w_1000,h_1000,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[I don't feel loved: a cry for help]]></title><description><![CDATA[This is a cry for help. I don't feel loved. I don't have a very long-term plan on this earth. On most days, that keeps me going. I don't...]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/i-don-t-feel-loved-a-cry-for-help</link><guid isPermaLink="false">68e96d99405534b9b6e598e4</guid><pubDate>Fri, 10 Oct 2025 21:04:51 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/5b4e66_2d7771b7ff4949e4ab5928febb0b2dc0~mv2.png/v1/fit/w_1000,h_1000,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA["The time of my life" &#38; Saiyaara]]></title><description><![CDATA[This AMLA every year has been an emotional rollercoaster, don't know why. It just makes me realise a lot of things I don't have and will...]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/the-time-of-my-life-saiyaara</link><guid isPermaLink="false">68c79ecdd7be92d5709b1ce5</guid><pubDate>Mon, 15 Sep 2025 05:13:06 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/5b4e66_01372aece7b442dc86e84ebf20489bd4~mv2.png/v1/fit/w_1000,h_1000,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Can't keep doing this!]]></title><description><![CDATA[EVERY. FREAKING. YEAR. These AMLA conferences are the one trip I wait all year, lord knows why. Every year there is a major fuck up that...]]></description><link>https://workinnprogressinn.wixsite.com/workinnprogress/post/can-t-keep-doing-this</link><guid isPermaLink="false">68c70be03909945e9b123c60</guid><pubDate>Sun, 14 Sep 2025 19:10:53 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/5b4e66_4336c9d5c4f74ef99e3d60674ea8508e~mv2.png/v1/fit/w_1000,h_1000,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>workinnprogressinn</dc:creator></item></channel></rss>